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My Post 1 Year Ago

A year ago today I announced our pregnancy to some of you with this facebook post, "Our 4th is expected to arrive in August. The ultrasound showed a perfect spine, brain and feet. Relief! And, it's a girl!"

I vividly recall my 17 week ultrasound.  I was nervous, yet confident everything was fine.  The tech confirmed my feeling, the baby looked perfect...no spina bifida.  Once I got in the car, I cried tears of joy and thanked Heavenly Father for sending me a healthy baby and for the opportunity to heal and have a normal pregnancy.  On my drive home, I called Matt, my mom and sister to share the news.  I didn't realize how much anxiety and worry I'd been carrying.  The unsaid gloom had been lifted.  I felt healing and peace for three weeks. 

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  1. What a year, huh? Through it all, I would have to say that if I could be anybody during a hard year, I would want to be you. Nobody does it like Millie Killpack.

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